Everyone goes through a time in their lives where it just feels like one huge storm after another. There’s never a break, and there’s never any help. Like a castaway on an island, you’re left all on your own, to live, to survive, and to conquer your antagonist. Whatever it may be, we all have an antagonist. It may seem weird to choose this word, but in literature, the definition of antagonist is as follows: A force that interferes with/ works against another. I’d love to say that my life is completely peachy, but that would not be the truth and like I said when I first began this journey, I am going to be 100% honest. There has been many road blocks, hiccups, and unexpected turns in my life lately. This has made for quite the emotionally unstable ride. There have been days where being happy just seemed unlikely, where smiling seemed physically impossible and tears came easier than laughter. I have never experienced anything like this before, and I didn’t want it to change me. I still wanted to be that happy girl who makes jokes and constantly laughs. I wanted to be my loud, obnoxious self, but it just all seemed pointless. I carried on though, being who I was. I tried my hardest to maintain that, not for myself but for the sake of others. I never want to be that storm cloud that hangs over everyone and makes everything seem gloomy; that’s just not who I am. So, in light of all that, I put on a happy face and pretended to be okay. But I wasn’t. I’m still not. Though things are better, the rough patch isn’t over. I knew things would pick up I would feel the way I used to, but when? that I don’t know. But everything happens for a reason, and thats what’s been keeping me going, my reasons. There will be a reason, and it will be all worth it. 

So, I dealt with many obstructions along my way, and over come a great amount of obstacles as well, but I learned some really valuable lessons. Though this little rough patch I’m going through isn’t exactly over, it’s not the worst thing ever. Everyone goes through things like this, it’s just about learning to live through it, praise His name constantly, and count your blessings each and every day. If I had to say there was one very important lesson, more important than all the other, that I learned, it would be that God will never leave us. He is there in our darkest hour, his Hands will guide us down life’s roughest roads, He will always be within arms reach, He will always be there, all you have to do is learn to lean on Him.

Prayer has got me through some of my mot difficult times, and surrounding yourself with God fearing people who love the church and praise His name will make such a difference. Knowing that there is always someone there for you gives me the greatest joy in life. It helped me get through this rough patch, and I know it will help me get through the rest. Granted, it’s still not over, but I can see the pavement smoothing out in the distance. God never gives us more than we can handle because by His side, we can get through anything. 

This whole experience has brought me so much closer to God, and even though it has been and still is difficult, I wouldn’t change it for the world. I finally realize that thats my reason. 

 

 

Side Note: I’ve always found it really hard to relate with the things in the bible because they always seem so old fashion to me. Things such as the laws of the time and what not, but this verse has opened my eyes and changed my perspective on everything. It makes everything in the bible seem more relatable and it makes it easier to apply the teachings to my life. Give it a read! Hebrews 13:8

 

xox

-K

 

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